Success, am I afraid of success

I have been asked if I am afraid of success. ...I want to say, no of course not. But that would be a lie. I am and I don't know why.

I am always surprised at my accomplishments, almost as if I don't deserve them,  almost as if someone will take them back. My husband does not get it, I don't either. I am smart and a hard worker. I have overcome obstacles that would cripple most folks.
Yet, I doubt me.

Why? I could go back to  my childhood, my crazy daddy, my college years and my first boyfriend. Was it my cancer, my fires,  my bestfriend dying of aids, my dad dying oe finding my mommy dead. Or, was it the firing from my job. My brother, thinks it was my first real job, I was failing and I bailed. That's been almost 30 yrs. It does, infect ...me...like cancer.

I am not weak by any means, but I am flesh and bone. I am tough, but  I carry a hurt....I know I deserve success, I just got to believe it, too.

Vick the Communication Diva
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OPN-DOOR COMMUNICATIONS

I have trainings scheduled and need schedule mediations. I just purchased promotional products.
I can't believe it. I am truly on my way.

I still have proposals to bid on and promotions to plan. I invest in me and I see the results.

I just got to believe in my capabilities. I am great at what I do. I inspire and empower.

I am Vickie R. Williams-Cullins, Executive Director of Opn-Door Communications and I am here to provide you with the knowledge and tools that will allow you to communicate with purpose.

Vick the Communication Diva
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Wow...just Wow

The last week has been just wow. . Opportunities have presented themselves and I have taken them.

My committee showed up and showed out.

My sorority lost icons and I was truly sadden.

Then, a man killed 2 people on the news. On tv. He live tweeted it. I said a silent prayer, hoping he was not black. I was wrong. He was black. Now folks are trying to say it's a Hate crime. Ah no. It was a senseless murder, by a man who had some issues.  No excuses. Just sadness at the senseless loss of lives.

Vick the Communication Diva 

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Stay the course, the struggle is worth it

Are struggling? Do you have goals, visions and dreams? Do you feel discouraged or dismayed? Do you feel envy or jealousy because your friends seemly have better jobs, bigger homes or cars?
Stop. Just stop. Stop the video of past failures and mishaps that is constantly running in your head. It's time to change the tape. Give yourself credit for ANY success.
Next step, you must stop comparing. 
Comparing breeds envy and jealously. It rarely inspires.

The struggle is real. However, the strength that it creates is paramount as that is what will propel you to meet your goals.

Folks may be doing the same thing as you. You will have competition. You will have naysayers. However, if is divinely designed for you; noone can stop you from receiving it, not even you.

Vick the Communication Diva
Www.opndoor.com

Loss, regret, missed opportunities, love

This has been a week of losses, missed opportunities,  love and frustration.
The window,  dishwasher and roof is leaking. Money is flowing, but the budget is tight. Then there are losses. Losses of people. Missed opportunities to get to know people.  People you can learn from. Yet you struggle, yet I struggle.  I don't seem to have enough time. Then they move to the other side.

Then regret seeps in. You miss them and then you relive your loved ones passing, the ones your heart aches for. You are sad. You recover, but it always there, you know regret.  Do something.  Don't let regret find a home in your heart.

Vick the Communication Diva
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Today, oooh today

Today, I woke up tired and irritated. I got a lot of stuff going on.
Business projects, Delta projects and  community projects.

I am being pulled because  of my expertise and reputation. I am knowledgeable and passionate. I am relatable and a hardworker.

I am thrilled about my accomplishments and my recognition. I also need to organize. I need to prioritize.
I need to say no.

It was not necessary for me to be irritated. I just chose to be. I allowed a situation to impact me negatively.

Aggggggggghhh. Sometimes, you got to kick the can. Sometimes, you got to say .....f.cuk it...

By the way..its ok to be funky and have a funky day; just learn to balance as well as prioritize. Saying no with no explanation and yes with out regret, can help.

Vick the Communication Diva
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Be brave, be Fuckin brave Today

Being brave is easier said then done. Bravery and courage are thrown around like petals at a wedding. Saying you can, should or that you are going to be brave are hopeful statements. Being brave is a action statement.

When life shifts and pushes you out your comfort zone, you are being brave when you face it and deal with it. Bravery is what and how I have chosen to react to life.

Regardless of what is thrown my way, I steel myself and deal. We all got that bravery switch. It is in all of us, the challenge is many of us are not brave enough to turn the switch on.

So, today your action statement is to be Fuckin Brave.
Vick the Communication Diva
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