Why Me?

I fucked up. I was chasing the money and forgot about the process.  I was chastised and in hindsight; I was wrong.

I did not get the part time opportunity that I was perfect for and was perfect for me. I am disappointed again. I just dont get it and I am sadden about it.
However, I move on.

Lesson one, Never Chase the Dollar.
Lesson two, Remember the process and your role in it.
Lesson three, Let it Go.

Life fucks with you. Yet, we still got to fuck with life. No matter, what...as long as we are alive....we got to keep pushing...even if we are the cause of the fuck up.

Vick the Communication Diva
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My anniversary

Today is my 7th anniversary.  7 yrs ago all was right in my world. My family was intact. My mom was alive. I married my best friend.  T and I have been through everything together. Sickness and health. Richer and poorer. Crazy ass highs and fucked up lows. We stand.

I often look back at other relationships and I think of what could of been; then  I say naaaa...God gave me T. The smartest,  slickest, funnest,  finest and toughest dude ever. T loves me. T likes me. T is absolutely the best dude for me. He is the dude who comes through in a clutch. He is the first man to give me a ring. He makes me laugh and smile. I feel safe. He is the first man to believe in me. He is my safe haven. He is the first man to make me feel safe.

They say you marry your Daddys,  I agree. My daddy with all his "stuff" was the best man in the world and I am so glad God saw fit to bring a man like my daddy to me.

Happy anniversary T. You are the love of my life and at times the bane of my existence and I would not have it any other way.

Vick the Communication Diva
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Rug pulled out or push forward

I just found out the last of my retirement funds will come this month.

Just like when unemployment ran out. I am nervous. I will get a very small retirement. But it will all be on me and Terry. I got to push forward and create business, this aint a game folks, this is real.

I can do this.
The rug has not been pulled out, I just got a harder push going forward.

I can do this!!!

I will do this!! There are folks with greater barriers then me , doing it.

No shorts, I got this...

Vick the Communication Diva
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Hope

On 9/30/15, Newport News Rentry Council launched our 1st job fair. We had 15 employers and 50 participants. We had Mr. Zarif who inspired and electrified the audience.  We had speakers who were informative about the bonding program and how participants can report any discrimination allegations.

We received rousing accolades from employers, participants and speakers. 

We only have a committee of 6 and we made it happen.  Our goal was to ensure that our participants did not waste their time and we were ensured that they did not.
Most of all, we saw men and women with their heads held up high.

On 9/30/2015, we learned what HOPE looked like.

Vick the Communication Diva
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Dreams, Motivation and follow through

I got dreams. Big ones. I have spotty motivation and follow through.
Things are happening and I am pushing through.
In the last seven days, I have been thrown under the bus, inspired people, broke a shoe, lost things, been inspired by people, been inspired by sorors, been confused, gained clarity and finally rested.

I need to pick a day for my todo list, a list that I write to break up my days to address my projects.

As you see, my week was not perfect. It was filled with hills and valleys. I fell and stumbled. I got up.
I have no idea what today will bring, I just know that as long as I am alive and competent, I will bring my A game.

Today, take a moment to be quite and reflect. Plan and prepare. Move through your mess, identify your purpose and stake your goal.

Follow up and follow through.

Vick the Communication Diva
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Safety, Trust, Polite and who really has your back

I am in business. Although, I have a benevolent spirit; I am here to make money. I have a trusting spirit; but I am far from a fool.

I speak of boundaries and yet I blur the lines. This comes from my need for confirmation. Why is that? That's why folks talk. We want our feelings, thoughts and ideas validated.

This is different spin. This is business. I can help but not at the cost of my business. I can trust,but not at the cost of my business. I can talk, but not details,  not secrets,  not at the cost of my business. 

Who has you back? Everyone doesn't. But, for real everyone shouldn't be. Lines need to be drawn and the lines need to clear.

Every body friendly aint your friend. Everyone who says they have your back, doesn't. You know who does and who does. Peoples tell you and show you.

Business is real. This ain't play play. Business is poker, chess, monopoly, spades and tunk...stay alert folks and lets do this.

It's Just Business

I have bid on a contract. I was told that the organization was going in a different direction. I was told that they were in negotiations with the other company.

My husband called  bull shit. I spoke to my VTEC contract consultant. I explained the situation. She reviewed my documentation and ascertained that I completely qualified. She did not even understand how the other company was in the running.

She called the agency on my behalf and advised the Procurement contact that she knew the other organization did not qualify according to their addendum.

Wow , wow....now the Procurement contact says that I am still in the running.  Witf...

I was about to get the ok doke. Wow...I am honest and honorable and was about to get cheated.

Pay attention folks, you are the captain of ship and the master of your fate. Favor aint fair and business is  business. So, follow up and follow through....dont let anyone tell you otherwise.

Vick the Communication Diva
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