Love, friendship and Loss

Yesterday, I attended the funeral of my classmates mother. It was full of love and laughter. 

I saw my mother's best friend and she hugged me so hard, I thought that I would break.
She was glad to see me. She missed me. I saw some of my mom's friends, I did not know them, but they knew me.  The smiles and looks of love, warmed my heart.

I then wondered, why is it so hard for me to reach out to these lovely people,  is it because I am envious that they are still here and mama, is not.
Its been seven years,  I got to get past that. I pledge to reach out. I don't want to go to another funeral, without having said my I love yous, in the present.